Time Away From It All

May 20, 2011
Well life's been so busy, again, and too much time has passed since I have written to you guys.  We were busy, that's for sure, we did our kitchen, have lived at Grama's for the past 3 months, and somehow I turn around and its May.  Right now I'm in L.A. for the weekend - Abba's been out here on a trial for almost 3 weeks now and me and you guys made it on our own while he worked here.  Now I came for his last weekend to be with him since there was no way he could make it back - and then I am bringing him back home!  The time on our own taught me a lot - mostly that I have to be more patient and I can't rely on anyone to make sure I'm a good Mom to you guys - but I have to do it on my own and then whatever added help I get (in the form of Abba taking over) is a nice bonus.  I also learned that I do need some time to myself - something I never thought I needed in the past.  I love being with you guys all the time - but I saw that when I took no down time at all I was a bit too cranky of a Mommy (sorry!) and when I took just a little time to breathe I did much better with the meltdowns that came. I think most people probably do best and act their best when they have a bit of time to relax here and there.  Now comes the real post idea - time off.  Yes, daily time off or weekly is important, extremely important, but once in a while you need some real time off.  Time away.  This weekend I'm having some time away.  I miss you guys like crazy - everything I see around me, I think "this kid would like this" or "wow, I gotta tell the kids about this" but at the same time - I'm just taking some time to really be on my own (or with Abba, same difference in our case) - last night, we went out to eat and walked back through the streets of L.A. - very pretty, so different than back home.  Cool air.  Nice breeze.  Kind of perfect weather.  Just some time off and I am thinking it will make me a better mom when I get back.  Calm.  Relaxing.  Today I'm going to the beach and just going to walk and see what is there.  Sit and read.  Strange concept, I know.  I miss you guys and know that this time off is probably as good for you as it is for me - even if you think its not good for you while I'm away, I think you'll realize when I'm back that its better because I am better than I was.  That's what a good vacation does to you.  Even if it is short and sweet like this one - they are all good.  When the hands of time move and its your turn to be the moms and dads, remember this!!! Love you all!